Not all pain can be felt

What a night, so quiet and only my songs are playing and thoughts just buzzing around, I don't mind it actually, I'm not so alone at night now since now I don't have to lie on my bed and just count the seconds passing. Even if its sad or disturbing, I know I can control myself from doing stupid things. I don't trust the phrase," I'll be there for you". Its an empty promise that both parties believe. But time or space, maybe thinking will make one of the party to think twice about that promise. Someone may  found someone else better and find another a bother, so they will drift apart, and the promise the other person hanged on to will be useless. But if the person that kept the promise that he will always be there but the other party decided that maybe they don't trust the other cause of reasons then, he left there hanging knowing that the other person is troubled, but doesn't want to tell him. Wouldn't he start also get tired of this? It's hard to find someone that will ALWAYS be there for us. But maybe it's harder for us to be there for someone else. And if I ever been like that, I'm sorry, so so sorry:/