Incredible week:)

I think this suppose to go to the"happyblog" but I lazy find for it. sooo, this few weeks, been in church help/plan for batch camp(like sec 1 camp, sec 2 camp etc etc.)  Busy packing and buy stuff that requires effort and energy but it's a God-filled activities. So yay, and I got closer to Jx through this too. Camp meetings are the shiok-est, cos we got to do worship and then, we get to sit down for hours, once we sat for 6 hours plus for a meeting and it was good hahah, I found out that I like work, being busy let me forget things and the people in the comm are fun and friendly so in matter of meeting up, became good friends haha, anw camp in another 2 days and staying over in church just so I won't oversleep again hahaha shiok! And I feel like I'm making full use of my holidays well, even though my whole body aches after the whole day of work. But still I can't sleep much,even now I wanted to sleep around 10 but in the end waking up, Dom suggested me to do QT so I did, and wow, proverbs 18 is like talking to me about sat. Oh, lets go to that, Saturday, well worship service was good but I needed to go to help the P6s with their "games day". so boo. The games was fun but I was lenient so mehh, my leader was the commandent, so he had to try to control the kids but he got frustrated. And then cell was small, very small. Its like 6 guys and there were 5 girls but they were contemplating whether or not to go, and they were close to leaving church, and my leader got even more frustrated and lost his mood. That was freaking mood dropper. However they came for cell, and we had worship. Worship was good but as soon as I kneeled and pray, thoughts on all the things that happen to me like people leaving, me or cell. It came to me so fast I couldnt stop crying and it was messy but not so messy. I feel more better after crying and now less paranoid. And proverbs 18 was relatable to me on that. When Dom said that God was always there for me and stuff, I broke down even more, cos I realize I pushed him away but He still wants me after that, I couldn't stop crying, People leaves, friends leave but He never did, and I know that, I just didn't accepted it.. I feel so much better after that. Less sad, which I guess its good. I'm gonna trust in Him and more. ^^





You didn't want to talk to me, its okay, i guess. As long as you're happy :)