"Happy" birhday

Yeah so, my birthday just past, and when there's birthdays theres bash.. and I could take bashes till they hit my face. Like fuck? They hit my face and I'm not suppose to retaliate? Somemore you say you use full force on me and all I got were bruises, haha so, I'm not scared to see you all cos I went through it once and I still okay. I won't agitate anyone on mon, gonna talk with those that asked what happen and stuff. and now, i try not to say anything on the comp about, but i know no one reads my blog so yeah just for me. Feel like a bother when mr singh keep scolding me when I kept quiet and say i forgot many things about it.. Cos like everythings so hazy after the shit happen, so i felt like a bother that they have to take care of, parents starts asking stupid question, mr singh is a good cher, but i really hated the noise back then but I just kept quiet. sigh came back some ppl tell me im stupid to fight back against them, i tried not to answer but i know, i will try, or die trying. I won't be like the rest whole just cower and let them beat at least put up a fight. gahh fuck it. sucha mess, monday is when its gets complicated. I wanna know i can get through it. Idk if ppl will help me or them but, yeah, i really dont give a fuck, my studies sucks, i feel empty, idk anything, idk how to feel or think alr, i just know, something will change.