Unnecessary trouble.

I broke, everyone in the house was being noisy, and arguing or crying. I just woke up, and I was not in control of my feelings or thoughts yet. As I sat and ate my dinner, all the noise and all the stupid bickering, my mind was going crazy, I held out till my parents stop making noise then argue over dinner I went into my room, and I saw my brother doing art. So i rest and play games on my phone, then I heard sounds from his iPod, I couldn't take it, I need to finish my stuff while he's there being a useless space watching shows. I screamed, I shouted, I kicked. I lost control. My dad shouted at me, I shouted back. He said I acting tough, so I threw back, Who's the one acting tough here? I hurt his feelings, he started screaming that I should leave school, cos I'm good for nothing, well thats what i understand. I really had the urge to retaliate but, I was controlling myself. I wish I was stronger than this, I never wanted to hurt him. They didn't fail as parents, I failed as a son