extreme tired one

Wouldn't it be nice? To have someone always by your side? They can be your friend, good friend, close or best friend. They could be your sister, brother even your parents. Guy or girl, just that someone you can turn to, and know they could turn to you too. Wouldn't that be nice? Don't you like the idea of that?  They simplicity of just having that friend to have your back from now till you both grow up and yet still be close as ever? They won't sell you out, they won't leave you for other friends? And you doing the same? One part dies in each of you two once you get separated, be it by choice or chance..  I had friends who were there for me for awhile but then they had their own lives and I wasn't part of it, some was because of difference in school and timing, some because they got bored with me and found interesting friends, some know me when they need me and forget me when they don't. Some saw me just another friend, I don't know whether I'm paranoid, or its true.. but people do leave and its hard to keep track of those who leave. It use to be nights that thoughts come in but now.. even in day around people, the thoughts don't leave