Faith hope love

Something went wrong during this month I just dk what was it.. I lost faith, faith in people and God yeah cheesy.. I went to church still but I can't pray or anything. I went for the alter call too, its just doesn't feel right. Subsequently losing Hope. I mean what if He really did forsaken me? I know it's stupid but what if? Ha. I know many people wouldn't want me. But it's okay, I wouldn't want me either. My trust fro me is very little now, that's why I only talk to limited people. Yeah I'm that messed up. Sometimes I cont talking to them cos they dk what's going with me and if I just stop it'll make them curious not concern. So love, I wouldnt put my hopes up on it, cos faith hope love are all connected well, you lose one of them you start to lose all.. That's why I try my best to talk to ppl I love, or those I still trust.. Which is a hand full. 2 hr naps make me have nightmares and think things that i didn't know..