Am I that fucking disgusting?

I can feel it, how everyone just treats me like I'm a fucking disease.. I can see it in school, home and friends.. Just tell me to leave you alone I will, for school teachers you fucking bear it for another 2 years.. cos i want to study and learn, no matter what kind of looks you give me. My family, you just have to tell me you regretted having a son like me, I'll gladly leave. Since all of you hate me so much, I know whatever happens you guys won't fucking care.