Crying

Idk whether it's good or bad, I just can't cry cos I'm sad, down, discourage, disappointed. Well, I wish I could, so I know I'm still human. Well to be honest, even though I don't cry, my heart always tears apart but I couldnt show it, even if I wanted to cry, I couldn't. All of the feelings are left forgotten and bottled up inside, so pri 4-5 I cried then I stop till sec 2, during the dec holidays, it felt bloody good to let it out, but soon after that new pain came in. Yeah, but the last time I cried I was in a church cell camp thingy, so this time I trusted God in it. Well still haven't cried. And many things I done this few weeks I really just say, do or even fight for it, just because I know, i have to take the risk. If i didnt we will know what's gonna happen:) so yeah cheers