what really happened

I slept through the whole aftnn and when I woke up, I just think through everything, I tried, guess you have someone else alr.. Oh well, and I really realize that the world is often trying to get a good reputation in their so called, "society". Really? When did statuses and positions we get define who we are? And there are ppl who just judge each other, I see it as only Perfect Ones could judge us, really, if you're perfect, then you get the rights to judge. While judging others, do you know that others will be judging you too? Love them cos it's right, accept them cos they are being who they are, Cherish them, cos they may be the last of the true "people" that are like this, okay now my head is in a mess, kk bye have fun

26 jan

Today uh, today is Layyeng birthday and Syafiq one also, yeah sad net ball lost but jyjy uh, I find it awkward tryna cheer ppl up sia:/ Bryan kok teach me how play basketball, and i still suck at it HAHA so today halfway thru edwin choo and mdm heryati call me out talk to me, i just respectd mdm heryati but now edwin cos she no problem mah, yeah she left eventually then he ask me why i like so rude to him or why i dont like him, i just said i hate his attitude and the way he talks, yeah straight in the face-.- soo the other thing is, I pep-talk myself just to get courage to talk, then I got ignore, ha won't you lose courage too? Yeah not a good day but I had worse

Friends

Been thinking alot today since I got alot of free time, cos 4-5 friends pangseh me LOL. Yeah to many a good or close friend is someone who's there for you. But to me, a close or good friend is someone that can just spent time with me, doing stupid stuff or just chilling. Yeah, it's kinda awkward for me to ask ppl out cos it's like I feel like I'm bothering them. So often, I will be at home sleeping or just chilling on the sofa alone, or now with the dog. Yeah I'm not referring to ^ who pangseh me haha I know you good friends. So yeah, I kinda depressed myself the whole day, yay. So yeah, bye ppl who don't read my blog:) my friend below post very cute uh? Haha

peeekabooooo

hi friends! :D im matt's cute friend posting ^^ and yep. hello!! :D cny today. hmm. said I would go to sleep after this. but, shhh. hhehe I'll try my best not to. so yah, cny. share your $$ with me uh richboy :D thank you very nice. I is a pro :3 matt's a noob! x) okie bai bai 新年快乐!! <: hehehe byebye <3 imma secret, shhhh $:

CNY

yay cny. Idk, this like the first time i actually interacted with my relatives besides collecting ang bao:p well today was good, nothing to get off my chest and i had like 100++ now, i know compare to others i not alot but haha to me, im a rich boy. haha here's a quote from a song i was listening when going to my aunts house, You can count your money but let me count my blessing. Haha rich words just there, I'm kinda thankful that I still have a home to go back to, sometimes. haha bye

people i hate

Y'know, I hate many types of people, that's maybe why I don't get along with many people and teachers, yeah, if you're gonna tell me, you aim to make our class win something, I lost repect for you, I rather you say you want us class to bond, but look you said in the way you really wanted it to happen, even though I realize that, i can't say anything. And whenever I hear teachers say no matter what you did in the past, I won't judged. Kay FUCK YOU, I seen all the way you have need looking at me, I don't say a thing cos it's seems petty and you always will have the upper hand to win the situation. Another type is when they are loud mouth, seriously, if it's not funny or not gonna help us with our class, keep your fat ass mouth shut. Y'know, i can't say im perfect, but I judge before knowing them, but most of the time, I seem correct. The things i hate about myself is that, I'm awkward and feel like shy scared to help others, sometimes i can do it, but other times, I really try to fight my mind and body and go there and help. Yeah, I hate going school now, cos I'm like a loner, my friends follow the seniors now, and I feel awkward with them so I lepak with Faiz all, haha but still awkward:/ another type I hate, is they can say ALL you want and again don't dare do it. Yeah keep saying you want slap my face, I shown you my side of my cheek all the time and yet you dw, get a life dude -.- yeah I suddenly got better in maths and I suck at physics, somedays I really feel like punching people. Yeah k thnks, bye have fun weekend

can lose what you didnt have

I miss the old times, I miss how you could tell me stuff and I just try and help, but now it's like you rather have someone else for help, yeah we don't talk much in school, guess it's my fault. Yeah, it irritates me that sometimes.. Agh forget it, maybe got reason why can't tell me, either way, i just feel like a person you text cos you're bored. Yeah, freaking tired, haven't slept properly since Monday though..

week end.

Emotional Saturday, all the o'lvl people all gone off, gonna miss their stupidity:/ well we juniors plan the grad for them, but it was messy, haha but at least they all had fun:) then Dom went to lie to us again, first was to Joel that the cell is splitting up, then he's not staying although he can:( but he's staying so yeah frigging happy when he said he is:') gonna miss someone less in cell, then sunday was my dad's birthday. Haha I realize I've been using this often, okay back to the main thing, just smsed him happy birthday and ta daa good start then later in the evening I was playing fighting with him, long time since we did that, I'm a skinny boy and he's a fat man, he swept me of my feet and sprain my leg, not serious but its very discomforting D: haiz then the thing troubling is, when you ppl you know fought, like why can't you get along? Idk I felt like I made matters worse by accident:/ man Im so sorry if I did, prolly no one gonna see this but I'm gonna try to help them patch?I hope:/ well mon I'm gonna try talk to her:o I pray that they both will be better soon:( c'mon game face! I cant excel in studies maybe I can do something about friend problem. I really don't mind doing anything, all you need to do is ask. Man, I really don't get some guys and most girls, I like living in my own world, Kay I'm randomnaising again. Cheer up ppl, life: it goes on:)

Crying

Idk whether it's good or bad, I just can't cry cos I'm sad, down, discourage, disappointed. Well, I wish I could, so I know I'm still human. Well to be honest, even though I don't cry, my heart always tears apart but I couldnt show it, even if I wanted to cry, I couldn't. All of the feelings are left forgotten and bottled up inside, so pri 4-5 I cried then I stop till sec 2, during the dec holidays, it felt bloody good to let it out, but soon after that new pain came in. Yeah, but the last time I cried I was in a church cell camp thingy, so this time I trusted God in it. Well still haven't cried. And many things I done this few weeks I really just say, do or even fight for it, just because I know, i have to take the risk. If i didnt we will know what's gonna happen:) so yeah cheers

quick summary of my day

Today was a school holiday cos of good o'lvl results, and went to meet joel, ate at macs joke here and there, when his house played studied alil, played beyblade, which is fun but I think I sat at the dusty corner my enzema acted up cos asthma to me, but I was still laughing whenever I cough, makes me look high, and a drug addict. Cool, came home in discomfort, got the inhaler, used it felt better but still have a swollen right eye, and my running nose plus cough go alittle bit better. Here's something I learn, don't wallow in self pity, you only stop yourself from moving forward, accept it and do your best, dad that's for you. Kay bye

TGIF

I'm always at fault here, I always get into troubles from teachers and students. I kept everything to myself, I never made noise till today, hey, the hometutors said they won't judge, and yet I felt judge. It's the way they look at me. It pisses me off so much. And I'm trying not to judge anyone, my chem teacher, my hometutors, my classmates. I can respect you if you respect me. I don't care how big or how small you are, how old or young you are, how ugly or nice looking, what race you are, what's your skin color. You respect me, I respect you back. You see me, moody in school? Yeah this is my reason. Kay peace have fun in the weekends

Sec 3, the suckish feeling

First, I alway say stuff here, cos no one normally reads it, hey, it look like attention seeking if you post on twitter or Facebook, or maybe pathetic. Yeah, but if I don't express myself, I just feel more pathetic. So I have this blog, and not alot of people reads it, so here it goes. I really don't feel part of the class, but I don't mind that, at least I got friends, I sit right at the end at a corner which I like, but it's far from them. So, most of the time in class, I kept quiet. The classes are mostly boring, I pull through most of them tho. I don't look like I have many things on my mind, but in my mind constantly racing around subjects, grades, my crush, will I make it to good school and stuff. So I just stop talking about my crush, I started studying like siao. Yeah, remember that I felt left out? I know God's with me but I just cant feel it. I really hope someone or something is gonna help me. Wish me the best for my studies:) hope I get the peace in my mind soon

Isabel tay hui xin! (correct or not?)

You fun sia, anw here's your post, and your post only. Haha happy bo? Ceyh, anw yeah your church gave you the joyfulness thingy, they were right. You got like alot of friends and stuff and yeah I didn't like it, I fell for it. Haha if you get what I mean:p lucky no one reads this man, or else I shy sia. my cat picture on top nice or not?:D haha you want short or long post? I take it as long bah. Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, you like it? Hope you had a fun during holidays, and good luck in school and seeing her, all the best! :)

hey there

Y'know what, I really fell in love. Hahah

school reopening

Truth be told, I'm scared for school, not cos of work and stuff, I'm just afraid of my social life. Half of my friends are going to a different class, including my closest friend and the most fun one. The one I'm still with are still cool, but I haven't kept touch with them during the hols. Yeah, somehow i became shy again, after meeting her. Yeah dk why I still use this though. At least I don't tweet/fb/ tumblr it. It makes it look attention seeking. Yeah let Your will be done with me, oh and pls give me the boldness and courage to step out.